The only real prison is fear, and the only real freedom is freedom from fear. - Voice Post: The Past Three Weeks (continued)

“So anyway that’s what I’ve been going through over the past few weeks. It’s certainly been hellish and it’s certainly been a lot of work and continues to be a lot of work to fight it, and to try not get too consumed by it really.

I haven’t really been interested in calling people or talking with people about it. It’s present enough for me to not want to explain it to all of you a million times, and it’s also a matter of energy conservation.

Anyway, I guess I’m rambling little bit.

You know, the other reason that I felt good enough to post this tonight is that Beth and I had a wonderful time in the city. We went to Kabuki Springs and each got a Bliss package where they do a bathing ritual and a massage. It was very healing. That was paid for by some of you all who helped do the fundraiser at Deborah’s a couple of weeks ago.

Thanks to all of you in terms of helping to do that, bidding on things and raising some money. It’s certainly helpful to us, especially as we get laden with more medical bills and also to have the opportunity to get a massage or something like that once in a while is really wonderful. I am eternally grateful for all of that.

What else do I have to say?

I’m thinking about doing another journal here at some point – not so much about what’s going on with me medically but more so about remarkable moments in my life that I’ve been wanting to document and talk about and share.

Stay tuned for that. I might start that. That will be a closed - it will start off anyway as a closed journal – invite only, but I’d be curious to hear who is interested.

I’ve also been thinking a lot about, “What do you do when things keep getting worse?”

The only real thing you can do is to adapt and to cherish what you do have. I am certainly thankful that I still have all of my limbs; I still have feeling in all of my limbs; I still have sight and sound and taste and certainly I love being able to experience my body when it is functioning. It’s much more difficult when it is not.

I suppose one upside to all of this has been that it certainly makes the simple things – having a body and enjoying it in moments without pain or discomfort – wonderful.

It’s easy to overlook that a lot.

Yeah, I guess that’s it for now, I don’t have a lot more to say, at the moment anyway.

This is Jeremy signing off.”

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