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Dec. 30th, 2006 | 11:53 pm

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“Well, I have been thinking more about this casting doubt thing. I realize I have been skirting around the issue a little bit and I want to clarify in more detail what I mean. I simply don’t want to waste time skirting around the issue.

What I have been thinking about is, there are, generally speaking, in many of the conversations I have with people who are into New Age or sort of the common spiritual outlook these days hold very strongly the power of intention, as do I. I think we often have tremendous influence on what we create in our lives through our intention.

Let me just say straight off that I intend to heal and I think that’s clear.

In fact, I intended to heal before I ever even had cancer. I lived a healthy life, felt very healthy and tried to make decisions that kept myself healthy, mentally, spiritually, physically, except maybe that being a workaholic led me to exhaustion. So, I would say if there was anything that contributed to my disease it was that.

There’s also the element of chaos, which I think that people who strongly believe in the power of intention forget.

I apologize if that sounds condescending but it boils down to sayings that I’ve heard like:

“Well, Jeremy, aren’t you creating for yourself a healthy life?”
“Don’t you believe in that reality?”, or
“This right now is an opportunity to intend health in your life.”
Whatever, those are sort of paraphrases of what I’ve heard.

And, of course, that’s true. That’s been true for a long, long time.

But we share this reality, so we are these powerful beings bumping up against each other. Isn’t it also true then that your intention of me being healed and living a healthy life is just as important as mine?
So when you ask those questions, that actually may even be casting doubt because of course I am planning on healing.

If it doesn’t appear that way, then by all means, confront me because then, that’s something that I want to address.

You know, I just saw this film “Water” which is a caricature of a young, very young 7-year old widow in India and an older, not so much older, maybe 21-year old, widow, a beautiful woman. It’s a caricature of many hundreds of thousands of women who are widowed and destined to live a life of poverty, untouchable, never to marry again. I doubt very much they intended that life unless they were dealt that hand from a past life and, if that’s the case, then you should probably go onto the next blog post and I apologize for wasting your time.

Right now I’m upset because I can’t be with Beth. She already missed her flight. We weren’t able to spend time with her father. Now I’m snowed in in Albuquerque, and I am not going to be able to spend the New Year with her or with other friends who are in town, and I certainly didn’t intend that either. There are acts in this world that are chaotic that are beyond our control. That’s important to understand.”

Transcribed by: multiple users

I hope this post is a little clearer. What it boils down to is that if you believe in the power of intention to change reality and you want to tell me about it --thank you for the reminder. Be confident that I am there with you, that I am doing enough. Intend and interact with me as if I am on a healing path.

And if you are worried about what's going to happen, that's okay too. Just communicate it as if it is your problem, not mine, unless your my doctor...

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Wow... 2007:

from: kilv
date: Jan. 2nd, 2007 09:06 pm (UTC)


I want to thank you for your new posts.

Happy New Year!

My best wishes to you and Beth.

I know you are on a healing Path, and you will continue to find your way on this part of your journey.

I think the natural truth of people shifting their paradygms to include their healing journey as it relates to your being in the Universe is an important point-- albiet a fine philisophical detail.

People dont always know how to respond when attempting compassion, and I am sure some of the various comments from the many people whom you have encountered since your illness was diagnosed has often brought you great comfort, but at the other end on ocaision I am sure it has required additional compassion from you to absorb/deflect their comments.

Do what you have to to get through this war for your life, and never mind the bullocks. The road to hell can be paved by good intentions... Think of the new ad campaign where the kids are in the supermarket with the candy in their hands saying, "Mommy, could you please buy me type-2 diabetes?" Its all context.

When Mommy buys her child enough sugar to feed a small African village for a day or a week, then there are health consequences to that "kindness" of buying the sugary cereal, or whatever the junk food is.

Conversely, how many howls of outrage would there be if the US government just came along and said, "No more Gasoline," due to the hazardous and health effects of gasoline? An extreme example but "Cruel to be kind," could be applicable.

All that to say, that "YES," just because people are trying to be nice, if they are implying you are 'ignorant,' 'negative,' or in some way 'guilty' because you have Cancer... (not to sound too negative, but) screw them. You dont need them. Surround yourself with those creatures in the Universe who will support you in your journey of health and well being-- in a positive way. Don't even worry about justifying it to me, but then again you have a lot of friends.

So, finally back to the fine point you made: I would like to hear some blogs on what you have learned; testify on prostate exam screening, medical marijuana, and other treatments you have discovered since you were diagnosed.

I recall when you explained the theory behind coffee enemas, for instance.

Also, please explain some of the existing alternatives to treatment not already mentioned; the limitations of trials; and other things which are very esoteric to anyone who hasn't taken the time to learn what you had to in order to better fight for your life.

Those are just my suggestions.

I am glad you are back on the journal, hope everyone had happy holidays, and wish you the best for 2007!


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Re: Wow... 2007:

from: jerumi
date: Jan. 5th, 2007 06:10 am (UTC)

Thanks Josh,

I won't pretend to understand every fine philosophical detail when it comes to health or life for that matter. This is simply happening to me. I want to enjoy life and cherish the relationships that I have and I am discovering how to do that.

Ya know, a quote from Gandhi at the end of the film "Water" that I mentioned in one of these posts sums it up pretty well for me. He says something like "I used to believe that God is Truth and that is how one should live, but recently I've discovered that its the other way around, Truth is God..."

I may get to some of those topics you asked me to speak about sometime soon.


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Re: Wow... 2007:

from: kilv
date: Jan. 5th, 2007 06:31 pm (UTC)

I liked the story about how Ghandi was asked by a village woman to help her son to stop eating sugary foods.

"Come back with the boy in three days," the sage said.

Three days later the lady brought her son in front of the master.

He wagged his finger and sternly said, "Don't eat sugar!"

The boy and his mother then left somewhat confused.

The next day the same woman came back with a puzzled look and asked, "Why did you need three days just to say that?"

"I had to fast from sugar first." Ghandi replied.

The point is its easy for people to talk, its a lot harder for them to truly intend what they say or mean. Also a great lesson on teaching with integrity.

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from: anonymous
date: Jan. 5th, 2007 04:01 am (UTC)

true to all is the intent to survive . to live and to survive are different to me. when you are in a true survival mode you become unatatched to any thing but life itself which is still an attatchment, but when you are in living mode i feel we attatch ourselves to all sorts of things. whats up with that? when will the human know that all we have is enough to do right. Jeremy, love you so.

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Re: jahn

from: jerumi
date: Jan. 5th, 2007 06:26 am (UTC)

Damn good question. I think I actually spent a lot more time in survival mode when I had (the illusion of) nothing to lose (insert Janis Joplin's "Bobbie McGee" here) and now I am enjoying living more than ever. I'm also confused and duped by desire to, for, of, lots of things and yet I feel most alive when I am experience whatever is going on rather than being preoccupied with how long it will last..

Really nice to hear from you Jahn (I'm assuming this is Sol's daddy?) - Luv Ya!!

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from: anonymous
date: Jan. 13th, 2007 01:58 am (UTC)

Jer-I'm so happy to discover this stream of existential dialogue. Matters of substance I've contemplated more than once. Thank you, and your collaborators, for digging into this sweet, fertile reservoir. Love to you, and to Beth.

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