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Jan. 27th, 2007 | 03:15 pm

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I have a much deeper sense of respect and honor for our ancestors.

When I was in contact with what Miguel described as “Grandfather” later, which was what was coming into my mind at the time as Grandfather, it was one name of many names; everybody is in that universal life force when we die and I have just a deeper understanding and knowledge of that now. It was also grandmother, and mother, and father, and child, and sister, and brother. Actually, in the room, each and every one of you was in there as part of this web - my immediate family and ancestors and everybody else in the room and their immediate families and ancestors and even beings we don’t know.

I know it sounds crazy, but it’s worthwhile, I think, to communicate my experience of this.

When Miguel later in the ceremony was dancing with the spear and also gave me the spear and put it in my hand and laid it on my chest, I felt moved to sing, yet something was holding me back. Miguel and I talked about that later. Although the healing that is taking place is so deep and so profound, there is more healing that needs to take place. Each of us in the room, as a group, are ghostdancers. That’s what we were doing. We were ghostdancing.

This ritual that leads back to All Saints Day and Día de los muertos, that’s the day of the dead, and the ghostdancing was taking place across the country.

While he was ghostdancing and while I was moved to sing, he was trying to trick the cancer which is like an invader of my country. Actually, one of the things I said at the very beginning of the ceremony was that I had been fighting for other people’s sovereignty for a long time and I realize now I need to fight for sovereignty over my body because this thing is trying to take over, and if it does, I die – I can’t live here anymore.

And even though I know that’s ok now more than ever it’s not what I want. I want to stay here in the country of Jeremy.

As he was working to trick the cancer to showing its face, at the moment he stabbed it - because I had drawn a picture of it that I shared with everyone - everybody looked at it and he stabbed it with a spear and I felt it as it happened, and my eyes opened and I saw it.

That was another profound moment.

There is so much I want to share. This was not a linear experience it was holographic like life, like nature I can only talk around the story and describe some of the moments.

This ghostdancing - when you dance and honor the ancestors - is also a way to heal, not only to heal me - it was very clear in that room that the focus was on healing me and my body and that was happening and my spirit too, but also the wounds of our ancestors and the wounds of our relationships with each other and the wounds that exist when we experience fear and can’t sing.

There were also other people in the room who could have been moved to sing, but we’re just starting. This ghostdance has just started and it can become even more powerful. I hope it does.”

Transcribed by: cauch

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from: girlinthemoon
date: Jan. 29th, 2007 12:03 am (UTC)


It sounds like it was an incredibly powerful, emotional and healing evening. I'm so moved to have been there in spirit, because I so was, and hope to be with you again in that healing space. I love that the frogs sang. Amazing!

Happy birthday, my dear brother!

Love, always,

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